Chihaya EX episode 1
Part 1, 1st Half
Chihaya comments that it's about time to leave for the live. She thinks the variation of songs in the set list is amazing. Producer mentions it covers from things like children's songs to gospel. He wonders if it's too much even for Chihaya. She says it'll be difficult, but if Producer has hope in her she can do it. That right now what makes her most joyful is being able to give back from relying on him before. Producer states that looking at Chihaya recently has made him relieved as she is able to enjoy singing any song. Chihaya responds that it's because she's been able to feel fullness in both her professional and personal life. But she still feels like she's lacking something important. She's not sure what that is but thinks she'll figure it out after the live.
Part 1, 2nd Half
Producer comments that Chihaya surpassed his expectations. Chihaya thinks the live was fun, but at the same time she also found her issue. She feels that she's finally seen what the important thing she's lacking is. Producer asks if something was really lacking as she sang fine. Chihaya replies that she was satisfied with that before, but that the more various types of songs she sings the harder it is to see what she's lacking. Producer replies that's quite a riddling conversation. He guesses that the more she sings skillfully, the harder it is to see Chihaya's unpainted face. She thinks that while her ability is improving, she isn't expressing herself through song. To express herself she'll have to take another step. She thinks that a new song is needed, something that projects her own values, a song with a lot of heart put into it. Producer approves of this and they have a meeting right away. Back at the office, Producer asks if the staff listed is okay. For now they're working on the concept of the song. Chihaya is a bit uneasy. While great artists were chosen, she's not sure if they'll be able to show herself properly. Producer thinks so too as the people making the song wouldn't know her personally. He says he'll take responsibility for that part. He'll look over everything to make sure it's properly completed as "Kisaragi Chihaya's song". Chihaya thanks Producer happily and is relieved as Producer is the one who knows her best. She also thinks that it's not only her song but both of their reaching point and a result of their activities together. Producer comments it's like a crystal. Chihaya agrees and that it's a crystal that formed from their accumulated reliance. She's sure that it'll emit a deep shine as her representative song. Producer says that they'll stop here and they'll discuss the contents next time. First they'll have to work on the image as it's an important song.
Part 2, 1st Half
This time is a festival. Chihaya asks if she wins then afterwards could they discuss the song mentioned before as they still hadn't decided on the concept yet. Producer says that's okay, but he thinks that she should concentrate more on winning the fes first rather than the song. Chihaya says that's true as the rival is probably a formidable enemy. However she thinks battling with people is easy to do as you can see what they are doing and match that. Battling something unseen is more troubling.
Part 2, 2nd Half
Chihaya is glad she won and wants to discuss the new song right away. Producer asks if she has a draft in mind already. Chihaya has trouble responding and he replies that if it's related to the draft he'd be happy if she said it. Chihaya says she has a battle that she abandoned in the past. She thinks that if she had faced it properly like with today's fes that it should have been sorted out. Producer asks if it's an idol battle. Chihaya says that's not the case and that it's a battle within herself. She asks Producer if he knows that after her parents divorced she moved out right away and if he remembers what caused her parents to start not getting along. He says her brother's traffic accident, it happened when she was still very young so there's no way she could forget it. Chihaya thanks him for remembering. At that time she was still small and was always anxious when her parents were quarreling. Things like "My brother... Yuu isn't anywhere. This must be a nightmare". She kept running away from the fact and was able to live again. However she never faced the reality of what happened and continued on being unable to sort out her feelings. Chihaya was thinking of making the song about accepting her brother's death. She feels that she doesn't have the confidence to sing such a heavy song. Producer comments that her regret is also a part of her. Chihaya replies it's part of herself that she hasn't shown on stage before. Producer says that even if it's not a song she can sing with a smile, he thinks that it's a song only Chihaya now can sing. Chihaya now feels determined. She thinks that if it's a song about herself that it has to be on this topic. Now the concept is decided. He says the song is an end to the days up until now. She says she wants to finish the ceremony she never could before. Producer says now that it's decided they can begin on composing the song. She says to put everything that was resting in her heart into it, and that she wants to show the courage she has now too.
I think I'm going to need multiple posts for this.
