Which by that? I mean a very long while
.When I first joined this community
, I was star-struck
with the pursuit of meeting people; it'd make for talk, laugher, gaming... and just being myself.
But recent events have made it abundantly clear I'm prone to lose my way. I've been reaching out to others, but I still haven't been fully redeemed.Not yet.
Some things need time to mend, which I realized too little too late... These are things you don't know you can truly take back -- a no-win scenario.
To make matters worse? I've had a close friend demonizing me with little-to-no remorse -- do you have any idea what that does to my conscience?
I broke down, big time. I'll do my damnedest
to make things better.
So, I will impose on myself a year-long hiatus
, starting in November. I'll cease contact with the Idolmaster community and by extension its hobbies.
if I'm to deprive myself of such pleasures? So be it. This'll be my solution to that no-win scenario; for growth, and if God willing, forgiveness.
I know few will be disheartened by this, so I'll leave you a memento:
I'm not that remarkable, but now you have a face. For those really aware, here was my sister:
These are the glory days, where you could worry about virtually nothing
. I strive to live by good example, if only because I'm the one child really able to anymore.
Furthermore, it's not often I take from my Native American culture... but we go by seven teachings of words, and how they're representative to animals that give.
The bear represents courage; the wolf for humility; the eagle for love; the buffalo for respect; the turtle for truth; the beaver for wisdom; the raven for honesty.
Hell, I'm not even very traditional at all -- I'm more the apple that's red on the outside, white in -- but even then, to go against these examples just isn't my way.
For all fellow Producers here, please continue repping our idols to heart's content; I know
you'll look after them. Any praise to Kotoha would also make me happy.
I'll miss your banter to say the least
, but please treat each other well -- like a family. I can spare a few more days for replies... but I'm set on journeying myself.
See you in the next generation from now. Third Vision, maybe?