Alright, I know I'm not supposed to be here now... but I need to cope. I'm not in a good place right now.
Today we lost one of two household dogs -- a yorkie named Sandy. The other is a poodle named Pebbles... she's still safe. They're both sister pups.
To start, I was simply minding my own at home until I got a call from the mother; my heart sank when I came to realize why she bawled her eyes out.
I lost it. This isn't something you prepare for. You don't even want to think about it... yet here it was, reality rearing itself at the worst fucking time.
Nothing can describe what child-like innocence a dog has with their owner. You can't explain by word... you just see it happen. Lovey-dovey things.
What truly made Sandy special is that she was a Christmas dog -- like, she was literally born on the 25th. You don't get something like that often...
Meanwhile, Pebbles was a Valentines one. For all you pet owners here, please don't ever take them for granted... They're more family than anything.
If nothing else, I can at least say she died in the comfort of my mother; away from all the cruel things.
I miss my little munchkin dog, yet I'll be grateful for the life she's able to live thanks to families like us.
I dreamt of my black yorkie Sandy just recently, where she was back to when she wasn't even a month old... and you could hold her in the palm of your hand.
When I brought her up to my cheek... she slobbered all over with kisses. She always did just that every time I visited our home she was in, so it brought me back.
People in general can never be anywhere near as pure as dogs... Dogs often want nothing more than the affection from their owners. Just love, basically.
Compared to humans? While we're much more sophisticated, we're prone to corruption and vanity... sometimes even wickedness.
That's basically why I think if God were to keep a checklist of who gets into Heaven first, dogs would always be the first in line. Guaranteed.
Future-wise, she'll be cremated and returned home... whereas Pebbles will have another sister to keep her company. It'll be a tribute to life.